Nikki Bella is continuing to show fans the ups and downs of her relationship with her former fiancé, John Cena.
In a sneak peek clip from the all-new episode of Total Bellas, filmed before their breakup last month, Bella is brought to tears while thinking about her future with the 41-year-old wrestler.
"I feel like 2018 is the year of change," Bella, 34, says in the clip, which shows her trying on wedding dresses. "I feel like I'm living in a fake life."
The teaser then cuts to an emotional conversation between Bella and Cena, where they discuss calling off their wedding.
"Are you falling out of love with me?" Cena asks, to which Bella replies, "I just wanna be a mom."
Another teaser was released on Tuesday, which showed Bella admitting she felt "lonely."
"What's hard at times and what people don't realize about my relationship is I'm alone a lot and I'm alone in these big, beautiful homes, which you're like, 'Gosh.' I mean, these homes are unreal," she explained in the clip. "But to be honest, since we've gotten engaged, John and I have probably shared our bed together maybe 30 days total out of, like, six months. Or, like, 40 days."
"So hearing [my sister] Brie and [friends] Lauren, JJ and Bryan all talk about their family stuff and their kids, it makes it, like, sink in a little bit more of how lonely it will be and how lonely it gets," she continued.
Season three of Total Bellas premieres Sunday, May 20 at 9 p.m. ET on E! In the meantime, watch the video below to hear what Bella told ET earlier this week about possibly getting back together with Cena.
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